The last couple days I have been letting myself get discouraged. The reason is that throughout the week I had stepped out on 3 different occasions to pray for and heal people and did not see the full manifestation of healing at that time and I believe I was letting the lies of the enemy get to me. I also would dwell on what I had not seen instead of what I had seen and thanking the Lord for that. As well, my focus was not on the fact that I was loving on some people, and regardless if they get healed or not, love never fails! (1 Cor. 13:8)
Of the three different occasions, one person felt no change at the time after commanding Dystonia and a head cold to leave his body (a new friend and brother in Christ). One felt the peace of God on her (a lady at Superstore), but was not healed of a crooked and hunched spine and broken hip. The other fellow, I got to share the gospel with in depth and talked to for a couple hours, and then got to pray for and command his leg to grow out and back again as they were of equal length. Just a tad though, maybe 1/16 of an inch, and he himself couldn't see or feel it as I guess it was to miniscule from his perspective. I had wanted to provide a miracle or sign for Him to be able to put his faith in the power of God instead of only words (1 Cor. 2:4, 1 Cor. 4:20). He did report that he had problems (arthritis) with his hip though and after some prayer, felt some relief from pain but still reported quite a bit there. So it wasn't like I wasn't seeing anything going on, but the thoughts I was having were "Why have I not been seeing the greater works Lord? What am I doing wrong? Am I doubting? Why aren't they healed right away? I am expecting right away! It seems like I am going backwards and not forwards to greater things." etc... Because of the discouragement I had let in, I had decided to stay home from ministering to people on the streets on Friday night with a group of friends I have been meeting with lately.
Well, I'm feeling better! Even though it should not be about feeling. We walk by faith, not by sight (2 Cor. 5:7). I have been refocusing on what God has been doing and has done, and the fact that I am planting seeds and loving on people. Also, next time I will try to do as Smith Wigglesworth used to do:
Wigglesworth Quote: I never ask Smith Wigglesworth how he feels; I tell him how he feels!
In Jesus - 07-14-2012:
Today as I left my building on my way to go for a walk, I found that someone had put a nice scratch in the driver side rear door of my vehicle with what looks like a key. So, after I finished my walk I decided I would go to the Police station to report the act of vandalism as that is a requirement here when doing an insurance claim. While I was at the Police station I decided to go to a park that I hardly ever go to in that area to read my Bible and a book I had bought a while ago called Bodily Healing and the Atonement by Dr. T. J. McCrossan (click link or see amazon link below and consider getting it. It is supposed to be one of the best!). While reading at a secluded area on the side of the Red River, a man came by and we got to talking. I was able to share truth to a number of things he had some questions about (ghosts, ufo's) as well I got to share the Gospel. After asking him if he had any pain or sickness, he reported had injured his ankle about 6 months ago and fell on his shoulder and cracked his collar bone 2 months ago and both were giving him problems (pain and swelling in ankle and clicking and pain in his shoulder). I got to command healing for both and while I had my hand on his shoulder it actually popped once on it's own and pain was reduced significantly. Very cool! First time for that for me, hehe. The ankle also was doing much better as he continued to report as we talked more. He said after speaking with me for 2 hours that he really believes that he was supposed to come there today to talk to me. :) Thank you Lord! He did not want to accept the Lord at that time though... Open his heart Lord! The funny thing too is if someone had not keyed my car, then I would not have been there either, so take that devil! Hahaha!
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