This is my first post and I want it to be completely honest, even at the risk of losing the respect of some of you. Please accept my apology, my brothers and sisters in Christ. I have not been perfect in my walk. Over the last couple days I have fallen twice. I was tempted and drawn away and enticed by desires that I had allowed to grow, and as a result, broke covenant with my eyes and looked at pornographic content and fulfilled self gratification. Today (technically yesterday), I start fresh, on this journey, the journey of purity! This time though, it will be with transparency, honestly, and full disclosure. I momentarily lost sight of who I truly am, having been created new by the Spirit of the Living God. I forgot the truth, that I am a saint, I am a son, I am a priest, I am a king. I believed the lie that this struggle is an internal one, one with my own flesh (Eph. 6:12). The truth that these temptations are from an enemy who knows me and my past well, is once again, laid bared to light. This is an enemy who will no longer get the upper hand (Jas 4:7). Freedom is now. My resolve is set and the goal is sure and true. There is a prize to be won, a prize of great value to be given, to one whom is yet to be met. I choose now to put on the new man (Eph. 4:22-24) and determine that I will dwell on things that are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, things of good report, things of virtue and of anything praise worthy, those, my mind will meditate on and my eyes will gaze at (Phil. 4:8)! That old man is dead (Rom. 6:5-7, 2 Cor. 5:17) and no longer a part of me. He will not be resurrected! It is by the Spirit that I will walk (Gal. 5:16), taking all thoughts captive to the obedience of Jesus Christ (2 Cor. 10:4-5)! Love you all!
Father God, I submit to You. You are so so good to me! I resist you devils of perversion, devils of lust, devils of self gratification, flee now and know that your future attacks will not be won, in Jesus Christ's name! Holy Spirit, I do not want to grieve or insult You any longer, sweet Spirit of Grace, I love You and offer this body, a living sacrifice, let your fruits be manifest in me. Jesus, You paid the price to set me free and make the way for me to be the righteousness of God, in You. You have made available to me, the grace to succeed as holy, righteous and pure, so I draw on that now by faith. I am Yours! Washed clean and pure by Your blood! Ready to live it! Amen!
I want to make one thing clear too as I didn't in the actual blog. This is something that I have been struggling with since I became a Christian. Never really getting full freedom. That time is now. No more playing games. Of course, every time I repented in the past I was sincere, and the Lord knows that, but I kept going back to it after a time of freedom. Now at least, I have no more secrets.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you brother for transparency. The victory is yours in Christ. Lord, strengthen my brother. Make him steadfast for you, in Jesus' name.
ReplyDeleteThank you Tommy :) I looked at a calendar and it's been over 10 weeks since I last looked at pornography. That may be the longest I have gone without doing so. Now I know those tempting thoughts aren't mine. That I am not that person anymore and I say to the Lord, "I love you God and I want to be pure and holy for you" and He gives me the grace. He is my righteousness and it is Him who is working it in me. Thank you Jesus!!!
ReplyDeletePraying for people to break free from addictions...Amen.
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